Rewind

 When I tell people I blog, their reaction is usually, “Oh, you blog … really … what’s it all about?”

Well, people, this is the introduction I should have written when I first started my blog and it is my blog so if I choose to post my introduction out of sequence, who is to say any different?

Over the past two and a half years I have lost 130 lbs.  I had been overweight for more than 15 years and very unhappy with myself.  As I shed the pounds, I started to feel like there wasn't anything I could not accomplish but I was still plagued with a feeling of dissatisfaction with myself and with my life.  This further led to feelings of guilt since my family is blessed with excellent health, my husband and I both have good jobs, a nice house, etc. Why was I still feeling perpetually sad and discouraged?

Honestly, I still don't know the answer to that question but I am working hard to find out. I want to know what makes me happy and I want to explore it in a mindful way.  I am consciously seeking out like-minded people to discuss this topic with because I don't think I am alone. In fact, I know I am not.  I am reading books and blogs, listening to podcasts and anything else I can think of. At the same time, I am trying to implement the things I am learning and blog about them.  I don't want to reach the end of my life, whenever that comes, and wish that I could get a "do-over".

One of the things I have discovered is that I am a creative person (maybe we all are) and I do derive a lot of happiness and satisfaction from creative pursuits. I love writing, photography, art, scrapbooking (both digital and paper), and design.  My dream is to be able to incorporate creativity into my life in a big way.  I am not sure what form that would take. I haven't fleshed out any ideas yet.  I think I am still at the beginning stages of this process. It's funny because I want to work on "my dreams" but honestly I haven't even allowed myself the time to just be still and develop an idea of what they may be.